La Bella Vida,

The world doesnt stop for no one’s grief

Just trying live life the best i can 

Why is this world so fucked up and currupt, 
Everyones out to get for themselves, no motherfucking remorse.

i swear…… shits fucked.

Some people have no standards what so ever, straaaaaaaaight dirt.

Bruises fade but the pain remains the same 
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid 
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday 
And I’m okaay 

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt 
When it’s you that helped me put up all these walls I’ve built 
Don’t you understand the damage you have done 
To you it’s just a memory, but for me it still lives on 

Bruises fade but the pain remains the same 
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid 
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday 
And I’m okaay ….  ♥ 

Symbol:The Scorpion
Element:Water
Group:Intellectual
Polarity:Negative
Favorable Colors:Dark Reds,Black
Key Body Part:Reproductive
Chinese Zodiac Counterpart:Pig
Ruling Planet:Pluto,Mars
Cross/Quality:Fixed
House Ruled:Eight
Opposite Sign:Taurus
Lucky Gem:Opal
Period:Oct 23-Nov 21

Scorpio Personality:

Beneath a controlled, cool exterior beats the heart of the deeply intense Scorpio. Passionate, penetrating, and determined, this sign will probe until they reach the truth. The Scorpio may not speak volumes or show emotions readily, yet rest assured there’s an enormous amount of activity happening beneath the surface. Excellent leaders, Scorpions are always aware. When it comes to resourcefulness, this sign comes out ahead.

Scorpio Key Words:

Strengths:

Passionate, stubborn, resourceful, brave, a true friend.

Weaknesses:

Jealous, distrusting, secretive, violent, caustic.

Charismatic marks:

An intense look in the eyes, muscular.

Likes:

Truth, facts, being right, teasing, longtime friends, a grand passion, a worthy adversary..

Dislikes:

Dishonesty, passive people, revealing secrets.

Best Environment:

Dark, sensuous places, any situation that offers power or rouses strong feelings.

Famous Scorpions:

Hillary Clinton, Leonardo DiCaprio, Sean Combs, Julia Roberts, Ted Turner, Bill Gates, Theodore Roosevelt, Charles Manson, Billy Graham, Pablo Picasso, Richard Burton, Calista Flockhart, George Eliot, Pablo Picasso, Jodie Foster, Larry Flynt, Jane Pauley, Dan Rather, Bonnie Raitt, Demi Moore.

My regrets are few
If my life is mine
What shouldn’t I do?
I get where ever Im going
I get what ever I need
While my bloods still flowing
And my heart still beats ♥

The more I look back on my life not only do i see miricals,

But I see the angels I was given when needed most,

I believe im blessed even in the worst of times.

I know someones looking over me. ♥ 

Once broken, It will never be the same. Its all so meaningless now, 

Its like you know they all think the same, only out to get one thing

I wish i knew that, forever searching for that same feeling..

But all that cute shit, its all fucking liessssss.

But its okay i guess. Everything happens for a reason.

Making a promise to myself, from now on smile through it all. Gunna try and not let the bullshit get me down.

Im tired of being hurt and im tired of hurting people, I guess its all karma. 

It truly is shit that you cant choose your parents, or the life your given. But instead when the time comes, you can turn it all around. I think that time has finally come, need to break free from everything holding me back& live for myself, No longer worry about anyone else but myself figure my life out and better it. Due to all the shit i was put through i was held back for so long, hurt so much, but i cant hold on to it any longer time to free myself from all the hurt& bullshit and just do everything needed to sort my life, and hopefully become a better person, and rid myself from all the negativity in my life and eventually fix all the fucked up relationships in my life. I pray every things gunna be okay  ♥